Came to UK = oct 2004 as student ( oct 2004- march2008)
Married (Mar 2008)
EEA 5 yr resident card( mar 2009- April 2014)
As everyone has their ups and down in married life I had same and my wife left me for good without informing me and took all her stuff, because she knew I need her help to apply for my PR. As per my solicitor advice I applied for PR on EEA and my visa got refused, because my wife was not exercising treaty right. she was working as a cleaner as cash in hand job. I got to appeal which I did but got refused again for same reason. I appeal for upper tribunal but no luck. so from April 2014 till Aug 2015 my case was under appeal ,my solicitor refused to help me so I have to look for a new solicitor , so he advice me to go for human right and filled flr (o) private life 10 year but luck was not with me the HO refuse saying that I need to give them the passport of my wife and the bank statement by 21st Jan 2016 which I couldn't because it been almost two years that I haven't seen her and I don't know where she live .she had cut me off from all the contact . so I got a refusal again for not submitting the required document of my wife and I haven't completed my 20 years in UK for entitle for private life.HO suggested that I should go back home and live my own life in some other part of my home country where my family and relative will not come to know and I will be safe

Please help me what to do as I have spent more than 8k on solicitor and HO fee. I have lived here for 11 years now. MY family back home had abandoned and life threaten me if I return because I married to a Christian. I don't know what to do, I have lost my job because I have no right to work, all my saving are going down the drain ( my expenses, fees ). I m human how can I live like this with fear,No job, why m I facing all this and my wife is not. Why the law in UK is so harsh.I have paid almost 55k for last 10 years as my tax and NI. I have not taken a single penny benefit .